Be Yourself…..You have nothing to hide.
I made a big announcement over social media about my current situation and pending move back to New Mexico after four years of struggling to make it and survive in Boston. I’ve gotten a lot of support and love from people which has been nice and has me thinking this morning.
Over the past four years, I haven’t really shared my struggles, my shame, my disappointment or my failures that I’ve been dealing with and living through here in Boston.
So why didn’t I share? Why didn’t I reach out and try to connect with others when my life and situation was spiraling out of control? Why didn’t I ask for help when I really could have used it?
I hid my head in the sand and put certain parts, what I felt were the ugly parts of my life, behind a curtain much like the wizard did in the Wizard of Oz. My permanent game face showed only the happy good joyful times that were few and far between. I feared that if I shared my struggle, I would be judged or looked down upon by others. My Scorpio nature had me scramble, run and hide under a rock.
Why though? Why did I behave this way and why am I now sharing this story now.
Well, I don’t want anyone to go through what I’ve just been through. By hiding and pretending to be things I am not and by hiding my truth, I hurt myself and others. By keeping my personal pain and struggles about what was going on in my life and disconnecting from everyone, I had to bear and cope with these struggles on my own.
I have been lying to myself and to everyone around me.
In truth, by hiding I was not being myself. I was not being authentic to the creature that you all know as Tobi.
So what can we gain from this? What is the lesson to be learned?
Bask in the glory of your greatness daily.
Don’t let other people’s judgement or criticisms frighten or hurt you.
Don’t hide your feelings or eat them or drink them.
Give yourself permission to feel good.
Share your gifts, your story or whatever you want with others.
Don’t be afraid or ashamed of who you are, what your status is in life, where you live, what you look like or anything.
You are perfect.
You are wonderful.
You deserve to have the sun shine on your face.
You deserve to be happy no matter what is going on in your life.
You deserve love and support
You do not have to hide ever.
If you are struggling, do not be ashamed to reach out to your friends, family or anyone else that you trust and who cares for you.
If you are happy, share that joy with the world.