Get that hamster off the wheel!
I’ve got so much on my mind lately that it’s hard to keep up. I don’t know who gave that hamster in my brain super powers, but I wish they hadn’t.
Anyway…This is how it goes. My mind. My thoughts. The hamster who’s all supercharged. (Fear, worry, anxiety maybe?)
My mind is riddled and scrambled and racing, and I’m thinking of all of these things all at once in no particular order:
You have an inspection today. What do you think she’s going to do?
Will she be nice or rude or happy or mean?
What will you do?
Did you clean the house up enough? What will she think of that?
What if she judges you? Will she make a funny face and purse her lips like a mean old lady?
Or stare at you with scorn and disgust?
Maybe she will think you are a loser because you are home and not at a traditional job.
What are you going to do when she leaves?
Are you going to work?
Write a blog?
Read something new and do some research?
Update your websites?
Maybe you should pick up the house.
Finish the de-cluttering project and really clean.
Cause you’re moving in September? Or maybe October?
Don’t you wonder what your house in New Mexico will be like since your brother has been living in it?
Your dad says it’s trashed.
Do you wonder what that means?
How trashed could it be?
Worse than when you bought it?
And why the fuck won’t he just get out of it? Him and his roommate.
Why don’t they just leave especially since they trashed the house and don’t pay rent.
And don’t forget about next Monday. You have an appointment. Maybe it’s on Tuesday.
You better check the paperwork again and write it down on a post-it, put it in your phone and calendar.
Did you check your sales?
Maybe you need to update your sales page….and write another one and ?
I wish my mind would fucking shut up already, calm down and be at peace!
Sound familiar, anyone?
Does your mind ever race and turn and burn and doesn’t want to stop?
You know, if you believe or have practiced the Law of Attraction, you realize that your thoughts are things so you better be mindful of them. I try to stay very conscious of my thoughts and when they get away from me like they are this morning, I have to do something to reel them in, comfort them and slow them down.
One of the things that I know for sure today is that I absolutely need to do some sort of meditation. I am going to take at least 5 minutes today (probably after the inspector leaves) and meditate, quietly here at my desk, listening to one of my guided meditations and to coax that hamster in my mind off of her wheel.
I know you are thinking, “C’mon Tobi, does that shit really work?”
Yes, it does. You have to commit to it and do it, but it absolutely works,
You gotta meditate with a way that works for you.
Let me share a story from my past.
I used to go to these meditation classes years ago cause I wanted to try it. Now, in the class, we would sit on the floor and get into Lotus position or sit with our legs crossed. You could sit on a pillow or not. Most people there didn’t and I wanted to be like them, so I didn’t use my cushion. Then the leader started talking us into the meditation while some really funky sitar music played. Now I love the sitar, but in this particular situation, it was not relaxing for me. Being in Lotus position wasn’t relaxing for me either.
So the whole time at this class, I was sitting and trying to calm my mind, clear my mind and reach enlightenment, but it just wasn’t happening. I could not find my zen or calm. At some point, my back started to twitch. My legs went numb. I got a headache. I never really felt relaxed or found nirvana. We sat for one hour. I remember feeling really disappointed and feeling as if I was a failure at meditation because I had such an unpleasant experience. When I left the class (never to return), I figured I needed to be something else in order to do meditation like the pros. I also didn’t start practicing meditation again until recently.
So here’s my take on meditation today even after having my previous experience. Meditation just means to to spend time in quiet thought for religious purposes or relaxation. You don’t have to be in a funky position or sitting for hours or sit on the floor or chant or listen to funky sitar music (unless you really dig funky sitar music and it calms your soul).
So, try it… Do some meditation with me and we’ll call our crazy mind hamsters even if it’s just for 5 minutes today (or 2 or 20 or 60) Whatever works for you.
Talk to you soon! I’m off to do my meditation and get that hamster off of her wheel.